From many youth I have given guidedance, several have asked me this question.
I thought it was a very good question. I don’t know if I have a very good answer.
I look a little bit around me and take a look out the window. It looked a little lifeless out there. Everything is almost like a black and white film. I fit in right now …I think…
I chewed my lips and thought so it broke. Her questions went over and over again in my head.
So far, I haven’t thought about this before.
In my head I thought me saw an old-fashioned weight where I put the word «vulnerability» in one bowl and «strength» in the other bowl. I saw them lying there and tilted back and forth.
– Too much weight «vulnerability» or too little
– Too much weight «strength» or too little
Back and forth …. back and forth ….. knew I was totally dizzy of this…
I look at her and smile and my voice almost doesn’t carry, but I say
At the same time, the «vulnerability» can catch me and I feel scared again. When this happens, I must relate to my thoughts. One set of thoughts that are not of the positive kind. Then thoughts of not being good enough and poor self-esteem will grow freely. Thoughts of insecurity, shy and fear spread. So for me, «vulnerability» is about actually weighing this word because it is both negative and positive to me. I am very vulnerable to some things because of my past.
Strength for me is generosity and the heart in the right place, to dare to be weak, and I told she more about me – but without embroidering this here.
I told her about this.
After this conversation with the philosophical question, we have talked a lot together.
And me…I have thrown the «picture» of myself -in to the wall and it has broken into a thousand pieces.
A little flash of light on a gray everyday for a person I much care about, showing me every day what bravery is ❤