When you lose someone

Art and words are always mine…

Watching you go

– your hand in mine loses grip

– sliping away

it’s like no other pain

I’m lost without you

I can’t breath

I need you

I miss you

your spirit waving at me

your soul is the brightest I have ever seen

I hope your ghost will hunt me

and wipe away my tears

– hollow

– deep painful grief

my crying shadow is trying to hide

I will never stop sobbing

the memories burn me down to the ravine

stairs to heaven…….wrong side of nirvana…

a rope led down into the dark eternity

I can’t handle this anymore

I know I find you there…

You have an hourglass that you

received as a gift

there are the days that slowly

flow down,

and you can look back to the

Garden of Eden

where it began under the fig trees of life.

I’m sitting here alone, so puzzled

Because nobody knows so well what

that means to miss the one you love and

admire, maybe you must have experienced

this yourself to understand…

Because if tomorrow never comes…

-no one can cry all the tears for me-

I am lost –

did I in every way show him

how much

I love you.

Whatever the circumstances, always tell those you love that you love them …

life is fragile

-Orkidedatter-

Mysterious rooms

(English text after the Norwegian text)

Hun er som et stort hus

Med mange rom som ikke er funnet ennå

Ingen som vil

Ingen er modig nok

Ingen ønsker å grave i henne

Det er ikke mistet

Bare gjemt

Mistet kontrollen

Lever på kanten

Blir kuttet

Kan slukke lyset

Dårlig i kjærlighet

Som et spøkelse

Går hun igjen hos deg

Gjennom vegger og tak

Begraver sin sjel innenfor deg

Ønsker seg hjem

Ingen kan gi

hun er trøtt av å være normal

vil være usynlig

bare litt til

ingen tørr….

-Orkidedatter-

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Mysterious rooms…

She’s like a big house

with many rooms not found yet

no one wants to

no one is not brave enough

no one have a desire to dig into her

it’s not lost

just hidden

lost controll

on the edge

had been cut into pieces

can turn off the light

bad at love

like a ghost she haunts you

through walls and ceilings

she buries her soul within you

she wants a home

no one can give her

she is tired of being normal

will be invisible a little bit

-because no one dares-

she is too mysterious

-Orkidedatter-

The Special Blogger Award

Award Rules:

1 Thanks the blogger who nominated you.

2 Answer the questions you are asked ( if you’re comfortable doing so!)

3 Create 10 questions for the bloggers you’ve nominated.

4 Nominate at least 3 bloggers for the Special Blogger Award.

5 Comment on your nominees most recent blog post to let them know you’ve nominated.

6 Have a fun

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Thank you Huguette for this nomination.

I feel honored and humbled.

https://huguetteantoun.com

I have so much to say about you, but I think I take a copy from my last post… bevause I don’t think it is so much more to say, but maybe my new readers will be grateful to it….. and yes, Huguette: you deserve all the best words in the world, I cheer on you and I am so fond of you.

I deeply appreciate YOU❤️

Well, Huguette, nothing has changed since I wrote some words about you last time, so I use the same words. Well, wait, I would like to add that you are a shining star here on the WordPress, at least to me and thank you for always supporting me.

Huguette, I am almost speechless but I love your blog. You have always a beautiful content with a deeper meaning to me.

You write interesting items and you make me laugh or smilewith your words or quotes.

Sometimes I can really feel all the feelings and it can hurt and I can feel like crying.

I appreciate your being a versatile blogger.

It is always a pleasure to visit your blog

I am really found of you Huguette, thank you so much for letting me be a part of your bloglife.

I also appreciate your always support and your lovely words and feedback on my art and words.

You are a beautiful soul with a heart of gold. You always want us the best in this community. You’re always honest something I really appreciate. You speak right from your heart and that’s the way it is.

Thank you❤️

Please, follow this amazing woman.

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Huguettes Questions (only honest answers are allowed  ) and my honest answers:

1 As a straight person, how you really think about gays / homosexuals. Without filters and fancy words. What if someone from same sex approached you?

I both work with those who are gays/ homosexuals and have them as acquaintances and as friends.

I love them so much.

I don’t mind if they approach me. I would say, hey, I still got it… 😉

2 You’ve been loved more or you loved more?

I met my husband when I turned 17 and we’re married and together yet, 26 years … so it is the same…

3 Do you think death is the end?

No, I don’t. I think «dead is just the beginning»…

because I am a medium and work a little bit as a clairvoyant and «clean» houses… yes, I talk with ghosts….and I am grateful…so I am who I am…

4 If God exists, and he is listening now and you know that: what would you ask him?

wow, I would have been ego and asked about my own future as a poet and artist and if I could get a super hero skill to transfer me to all you wonderful bloggers and given you a hug and said hello here I am and this is me…

5 Physical attraction is important to you? Not the most important, but is it important? And I know that the heart and soul are the most important; I really do but let’s be realistic here OK?

Yes, it is important to me. That’s why I have the world’s most handsome man😉❤️

6 General Manager in a big company or running your own business?

My own business…

7 What would you feel / do if you suddenly enter the room and found your partner in your bed with your best friend ? Or simply a friend? If you’re single, your future cheater partner then?

It will be good to take the big green plant beside my bed and use it on both and divorce and move and I will feel completely fucked and deceived and not good enough and inept and ugly and on and on an on…oh wow, it is my biggest nightmare… I hope I never will be a part of this….

8 What’s your favorite scent? Can be a fragrance or just a scent.

It is nature and the ocean and Norwegian fjords…

9A car ride or Harley ride?

A car ride… or… Harly- gosh… that is just a ride in my imagination…

10 Paragliding or Banana water ride?

Banana water ride…

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Thank you again Huguette for you interesting questions.

Take care❤️

-Orkidedatter-

In the glow of a winters frozen moon.

This poem was inspired by a line

«In the glow of a winters frozen moon»

from my good friend https://

blogofthewolfboy.com

and is Mathew who is the author behind this blog.

When I read that line.. my mind and brain went crazy. Words started to spin and squeeze into my writing arm and I just had to let the ink dance over the paper.

I am honored to call you my friend.

Thank you Mathew.

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In the glow of a winters frozen moon

In the wilderness night she is trying to

create her own snow angel with hope

she can sparkle togheter with the snow

crystals in the moonlight

tears falls down her cheek finding

their own ways in her skin

unresolved

her sadness is the gateway to redemption

to know her sadness in silence

she is searching for something she can’t

reach

she is off the deep end

will she awaken the phoenix or

the demons in your soul

in the embers of broken hearts her life

is a shadow of ghosts in darkrising

and she will never shine anywhere

but in the moonlight

she whisper your name gazing at the moon

among with the rustling autumn brown

leavs from last year

vulnerable

in the glow of a winters frozen moon

you are the silhouette of her heart in

every painful moments

until their hearts touch she is just a vibe

you can’t find nowhere else.

-Orkidedatter-

My collection of poems.

Well, this is my cover of my book.

It will eventually be published in both

English and Norwegian language.

I am so exited, but it will take some time…

But knowing that this dream will

eventually come true is incredible.

I work with this process almost day and

night for a while and have done it too and I

continue to it is published…

I just want you to know…

I love you all folks

Take care.

-Orkidedatter-

The Liebster Award

I have been nominated by

https://blogofthewolfboy.com

and it is Mathew who are the author behind this blog.

Thank you so much, I deeply appreciate it that you think I deserve this award.

Mathew: ( I copied this from my previous awards from you, but I added some new words….I hope you don’t mind)

… your poems … your interviews of other bloggers and your story … you blog about a lot of different and I sit enchanted and captivated on the sidelines with many emotions, a smile, or I laugh, or cry…

It blows me off the track, and I just want to flow with your words.

The more I read from you the more I will come back to your page and read. I am so impressed over your work on blog.

The first time I read on your blog I cracked in pain, and just wanted to move me in time and space to give you support. It was like reading a little about myself, and I felt deeply in my heart every emotion you described …

You are a great talent with your writing skills and you will reach far in this world.

You are a beautiful soul with a heart on the right spot with so much love and caring for others.

I’m pretty sure we could have sat talking for hours in the sunset about everything..

I think you have just started a journey that will take you beyond limits and your imagination, and I will be there to cheer on you. I wish you only the best from depth of my heart because you are YOU.

Thank you Mathew, I am so humbled to call you a friend.

(if you ever need any help with art you know where to find me😉)

Please, follow him, show him your love.

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The Rules To Award:

Thank the blogger(s) who nominated you

Share 11 facts about yourself

Answer the 11 questions the blogger(s) asked you

Nominate 11 bloggers and ask them 11 questions

Notify your 11 nominees

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11 facts about myself:

1) I have an aquarium and can sit watching this for a long time, sinking into a world that only the fish know.

2) I am not fond of cycling.

3) I can almost eat parsley to everything

4) I have two dogs

5) You know I’m a country girl living in the woods in Norway, but I’m lucky and have the wild animals right outside my door, everything from predators to cozy cute animals

5) I meditate and like to go outside to do it too.

6) Since I was born and raised in the wilderness, I can also use it to survive, read signs and be grateful for what it gives… I listen carefully to what nature says…

7) I am quiet and shy and skeptical, but do you get to know me and I trust you I will let you into my heart.

8) I love to read, but I often end up with paper and a pencil and draw or write.

9) I don’t like shopping.

10) I was going to be a chef once, but started vomiting when I was going to treat meat somehow … but still, I passed the college with the best grades ..

11) I am often in Sweden because I do not live so far from the border …

Matew’s 11 Questions with my answers:

1. What number can you count to without taking a single breath?

Let me try…. 99… wow…

2. How many push-ups can you do before you can’t do anymore?

Right now, 1… I broke one of my two for a few days a go and it hurts…

3. If you could clone one person in the world who would it be?

My husband, because the world need more people like him in it.

4. Would you clone yourself and would you trust your clone if you did?

Yes, and the world had become a better place😉

5. Would you go into the ocean on a submarine?

No.

6. Do you prefer to write on a laptop or with pen and paper?

I often/always write on paper with a pen, because I feel more in unison with the words and get a better relationship of ownership to the words on the paper… (and yes, it is more work…)

7. What’s a cherished childhood television show that you used to love but haven’t thought of in a while?

Muppet-show

8. Whats a smell that you love?

I love the smell from nature… a flower meadow or a Norwegian fjord or the freshness of the rain or ……

9. Do you prefer green apples or red and sweet apples?

Red and sweet apples ( this is a beginning of a poem I think…)

10. If you could have the perfect dream and never wake up would you take it?

No, I’m too curious about what life has to offer in the future…

11. How many cats does it take before you start to be labeled as a crazy cat person?

2, I have two… and yes, someone says I am a crazy cat person…. but I think it is enough with 1 to be called that…give them much love❤️

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Thank you again Mathew, I really enjoy doing this, and your questions was good.

I am sorry folks, I break the rules… no award-no questions.

Take care.

-Orkidedatter-

-Lullaby-

Nobody knew how much she blamed

herself

she can’t breath in the end of the midnight

moonlight show her the path

she can’t get him out of her mind

one picture bringing back so

many memories

she can’t breath in the end of the midnight

she can hear the angels voice

a silent Lullaby

he is her univers

she is just a little human on earth

dancing with the moonlight shadow

mesmerized

faithless

pain – tasted blood

shoot her, the voice of the death said

she believe – hell is all she catch

the devils Lullaby is awakening

nobody gonna miss her

crawling on the floor

single bourbon on ice

a perfect storm in her head mixed with

a destroyed Lullaby on her jukebox

’cause this is where the country girl

slips away

she has bucked off.

-Orkidedatter-

The Special Blogger Award

I feel honored and humbled because

https://blogofthewolfboy.com

gave me this award, and it is Mathew

who are the author behind this blog.

I am so grateful to have stumbled upon your blog not long ago.

Your words … your poems … your interviews of other bloggers and your story ..

It blows me off the track, and I just want to flow with your words.

The first time I read on your blog jev cracked in pain, in pain and just wanted to move me in time and space to give you support. It was like reading a little about myself, and I felt deeply in my heart every emotion you described …

You are a great talent with your writing skills and you will reach far in this world.

You are a beautiful soul with a heart on the right spot with so much love and caring for others.

I’m pretty sure we could have sat talking for hours in the sunset about everything..

Thank you Mathew, I am so humbled to call you a friend.

Please, follow him, show him your love and be enchanted by his words.

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Award Rules:

1 Thanks the blogger who nominated you.

2 Answer the questions you are asked ( if you’re comfortable doing so!)

3 Create 10 questions for the bloggers you’ve nominated.

4 Nominate at least 3 bloggers for the Special Blogger Award.

5 Comment on your nominees most recent blog post to let them know you’ve nominated.

6 Have a fun

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Mathew’s questions and my answers:

1 You’re on your way to work and you see a yellow light ahead. Do you gun it and make the light or cautiously wait for the red?

It has happened…I have gun it… but for the most part I stop.

2 A burglar has broken into your building right now. What’s the closest object you use as a weapon?

Either a lamp or a large plant.

3 You’ve just discovered that you can freeze time. What’s the first thing you do with this power?

Mmm, I can’t tell it out loud ..I leave it to your imagination..

4 What’s a habit you have or a thing you do which others might consider weird?

Oh my.. I am weird all the time… lol…but to collect teddy bears….

5 What’s a song that you like but you’re embarrassed to admit it?

No I have not a song like that…

7 How do you deal with a stressful day?

Meditate, draw, listens to music, writes poems and paints …

8 Least favorite vegetable?

Broccoli

9 Least favorite animal?

Duck counts as meat…

10 If you’d won the lottery would you share the jackpot with me?

I could have come up with something good for us….and you hadn’t refused it…

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Take care folks, that’s all.

-Orkidedatter-

A heart of tears… who is she…

I have been unsure of posting this, but the words mean so much to me – I slightly light the veil and show a little of myself today…
– I think it is a little bit scary and it is with many mixed feelings, Orkidedatter shows a bit of who she is behind all these words on this blog ..

-I am so Grateful from deep in my heart and soul to you readers and followers. Thank you so much.

Hjertets tårer the heart of tears who is she Norwegian blogger blogger Norway

She tries to find peace because her heart

will grow.

It’s beautiful, but worn.

The edges are sharp all the way around.

It has been attempted repaired. With

needle and thread or patch.

If you look closely, you can see the shade of

the patch torn off time and again.

Looking even further in, at the back of the

heart, you can glimpse a face.

It can become clearer the more you see, or

more like the shadows waving in the wind.

Unclear with black color that slides into

each other and it becomes difficult to put

into words – who it is –

You realize that the face belongs to the

heart, because they are equally ghostly.

She turns her face away in disgust and

loathing.

It storms in the heart’s rhythm.

Faster and faster, she will not be anymore,

but it will not go away.

It is like thorns from «the black rose» being

thrown at her, and she feels an

indescribable pain in her heart.

In the face behind the heart tears flow like

a waterfall.

As a veil, they lay around her heart and dig

«the river of tears» bigger and deeper.

Can she fix it?

Can she be whole again?

Is the last flame extinguished?

She feels her heart, breathes deep, tries to

find calm and feel her own heart beating.

They said it would be good again ….

I don’t

need to take care of memories that aren’t

good for me anymore.

She wipes away the tears that quietly fall

down her cheek.

Her body remembers.

The heart knows.

Her mind can trick her.

All of the emotions and experiences are

stuck in her body as the pain of a thorn-

they scream the worst she senses-

Her body is crying for help, her soul is

working on a blow to heal, her mind is

trying to work with heart.

And her heart … she tries the best she can

to put it back together so she can move on

in life.

With a heart full of scars she begins to feel

the various nerves. They are there as black

paths. Trails she never wants to join, but

they must be in ok condition.

They’ll be with her to the end of life and

she’ll try everything she can to make new

paths bright and beautiful next to the dark

ones…

-Orkidedatter-

(Thank you very much to my aunt child who made me makeup this day)

Special Blogger Award

I am so honored and humbled because I sm nominated by my friend Jessica

https://jessicaelarsen.com

I am so happy for that our roads cross each other on blog.

You are a sunshine and a everyday glimpse in this blog community.

You are always supportive and always tell me kind and lovely words.

You are a writer and author I am looking up to with great curiosity and honor.

You write a lot different and I am totally dazzled by your magic.

I can’t express myself in English.

I am speechless.

You❤️must only be experienced.

You are a lovely soul with a heart of gold, never stop writing❤️

Please, visit and follow and give Jessica her love she deserves, because you are you.

Thank you Jessica❤️

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Award Rules:

1 Thanks the blogger who nominated you.

2 Answer the questions you are asked ( if you’re comfortable doing so!)

3 Create 10 questions for the bloggers you’ve nominated.

4 Nominate at least 3 bloggers for the Special Blogger Award.

5 Comment on your nominees most recent blog post to let them know you’ve nominated.

6 Have a fun

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Jessica’s questions:

1 Have you ever enjoyed school?

Yes, on the University.

2 What’s your life motto?

Do small things with great love.

3. What kind of fear have you overcome?

My spider fear

4 Ever experience to drown?

Yes.

5 When you heart and mind is in conflict, which wins?

Oh wow… sometimes my heart and sometimes my mind…

6 What kind of blog post you like to read?

I like to read different posts.

From heart and soul -honest-

from darkness to light- cop with life-

from real life and fiction – inspiration

poems and short stories – heartwrenching- painful- beautiful – feelings-

I love you all folks.

7 If you were an animal, what kind are you?

A panther….

8 Do you like spicy food?

Yes.

9 Age doesn’t matter to love. Agree or not? Why?

My heart says it doesn’t matter, my mind says it does… well, who wins this time…

Only those involved love each other and are honest, respectful, loyal and mean it seriously …. (don’t play with feelings)…

10 Your definition of true love?

True love is hard to describe, but easy to recognize. In other words; When you first encounter true love, you know with yourself that it is what you know. And when you doubt your feelings, it’s because they’re not real. This is certainly true in many cases. But it is not always the case. For the nature of love is not at all equal for everyone. On the contrary, everyone experiences it in its unique way.

It is difficult to define love and describe how love feels. We must distinguish between love and falling in love. Love is a much stronger feeling than falling in love and needs some time to come forward. Falling in love is something that you will experience several times in your life, but once many will experience a life-long love. Eventually, this love is transformed into something we call love.

Or, me and my husband = true love❤️ but, I need so many more pages to describe us on, so ..

Oh wow, I have to stop myself.. I love to philosophize…

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Thank you again Jessica.

Take care.

No nominees or questions.

-Orkidedatter-